Rapper Andre Johnson opened up about his alleged suicide attempt for the first time to TMZ. Johnson, who used the name Christ Bearer, told the site that he was depressed over not being able to see his daughters.

Reportedly the mother(s) took out a restraining order that prohibited the rapper from contacting his children. TMZ also reports that Johnson has a baby on the way. Johnson told the site that he was feeling alone that night so he started smoking weed and reading a book about monks and vasectomies. He then decided to take things into his own hands and severed his penis before jumping from a second floor balcony.

The Wu-Tang affiliated rapper is said to be doing a lot better. He told TMZ that plastic surgeons were able to reattach his penis and they expect it to regain full functionality. However, there is a possibility that he won't be able to have any more children, the site claims.

"Peace... The urologist and plastic surgeons @ cedars-sinai expect a full recovery by weeks end," he posted on Facebook on Apr. 20. "All praise due to Allah!... thank you for your love prayers and continued support... you to haters. Keep up the hate work lol. As for my true fam once I get out of here and off the propofol I will stay away from all designer drugs!!! ESPECIALLY KRYPTONITE."

According to a previous report by E! News, people with the rapper that night said he was high on PCP and used a kitchen steak knife to cut off his manhood. Reportedly Johnson used a serrated steak knife to cut the tip off, before slicing off his testicles and then the remainder of his genitalia with the knife.

By the time police arrived, he was reportedly standing on the balcony. Despite pleas and coaxing to come down, the rapper jumped and was found lying on the ground in critical condition. He was rushed to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center, where he is still recovering.